We All Heal and Cope with Being a Survivor Differently

Every person experiences trauma in a different way. So everyone heals in different ways too. I wanted to share with you something I have done all these years as a way to heal. Sometimes the emotion of the memories would become overwhelming and I would feel like I need to blow off some steam. I would try going to the gym…. Did not help. I put up a punching bag in the basement at home …. It did not help either. I was beginning to get frustrated with not finding a release for all the pent up emotion I was holding on to.

Then one night that all changed. I was sitting at my desk which was located close to the punching bag, I had just finished punching the bag and was unwrapping my hands as I was thinking about why I could not find a way to get the weight of the world off of my shoulders. Out of the corner of my eye I noticed a journal I recently had bought. So I grabbed it and grabbed a pencil.

Full disclosure I can not draw to save my life. A stick man is the extent of my talent. This thought ran though my head as I looked down at the pencil in my hand. For some reason I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and began to move the pencil in my hand across the page. Keeping my eyes closed while letting the emotion flow though my hand onto the page. I continued doing this for about 15 minutes before finally opening my eyes. I was pleased with the image I saw before me.

I could see the emotion I was feeling right  there on the page. I felt lighter after seeing my explosion of thoughts. I knew that to anyone else the scribbles on the page would not look like anything significant but to me it was a piece of my heart and soul on the page.

 

There are many forms of expression that may help to make you feel better.

There are no right and wrong forms of expelling the emotion you are feeling. Find something that works for you and give it all you have to give. Even if your finished project does not look the way you intended. Someday all at once, you will see the beauty of the art that lays before you.

 

Through out this post I have attached a few of what I call blind expression pieces I have done from over the years.

 

Please be Kind…. as ….

Sometimes  beauty is only seen through the eye of the

beholder, but it is beauty no less.